Beautiful Fascism

I spent 48 minutes bending my mind into a sword for you

It is Beautiful the way opposites are set up and forever circle into each other, every pair of opposites is an infinite circle. This is especially true of all Ideologies, Politics, and Truth Systems. The hyper spiritual people of the modern world actually only believe in the material manifestation of of the spiritual, they are looking for Signs. And the Mechanists, The Materialists, have reduced all experience to abstract and invisible laws. You aren't seeing Reality, Waves are interacting with your Brain and creating a Simulation. I liked Network Spirituality for being both and neither, Coded Reality . Everything is Real. Everything Is Nothing.

I have an ethical intuitive personality type, i like to watch the things I cognise become integrated into categorical systems in my mind in real time. I spend most of my leisure doing this.

I like this one:

Y AXIS - SCHIZOPHRENIA - AUTISM

X AXIS - SACRAMENTAL - GNOSTIC

Which basically means:

Y Axis: Everything but I is Real - Only I Am Real

X Axis: Everything is Real - Nothing is Real

Look at the intellect go! Separating reality onto a Cartesian graph again and again and again. Again! Again! In real time! I am therefore I Am? You are therefore I Am? I am not therefore That is? That is not therefore I am?

God laughing. God sees your shadow not your face. (if you didn't know by now, this Substack is a stream of consciousness exercise which I use things I have read or seen lately, mostly online, as symbols for my own enjoyment.)

I set that whole thing up to talk Fascism. I can hear the people screaming!!!! It's because they're all Fascists. I sometimes privately wonder why we aren't forced to be more beautiful under pain of death.

Why don't I take my own initiative and become more beautiful myself? Because I am a Fascist. I Fantasise of being Compelled, within or without, by Neurosis or Law, to replace my will with obligation. Fascist Fantasy. This is what is so amazing. Fascist gets thrown around a lot. But it always means the Authority you resent but need because you aren't Free. Whatever Politics you enjoy, the other is always the Fascist, and you the Freedom Lover. Have you noticed this?

I've been thinking about this ever since researching Ezra Pound's Fascism and reading a lot of Ezra Pound Did Nothing Wrong youtube comments.

I've been thinking about this forever actually. Ever since I became involved with Socialists as a 16 year old and realised that becoming a political extremist is a way to satisfy your urge for Fascism without admitting it. And I have watched that confirmed again and again with every development in the politicalsocial sphere in the last 6 years. Politics is a roundabout or a hall of mirrors. But i decided to Enjoy the ride. To enjoy fascism, and not fight it. I think thats what Ezra Pound was doing with his Mussolini Radio Show. It is a beautiful thing to be sent to an asylum for treason.

Let's go over here for a bit: If you become an initiate, you learn how to be Free. I read about this in Knowledge of Higher Worlds and it sent me into a deep transcendental pause.

Do you know what Real Freedom is?

To Act without Motivation, Without Obligation, Without Reason internal or external.

To Already Know that it Will be done.

And To Be Free means you are Good True And Beautiful not because of obligation, trying, striving, but because you Are.

You are Free. You are Perfectly Moral. You Act Out of Knowledge without Thinking.

This is insane. But I know in my heart it is possible and true. This is what Free Will is, and it exists in Grace every day, despite our Fascist Fantasies.

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Like, I decided to Enjoy The Ride. I do not pretend to have it in me to taste Real Freedom beyond what Grace gives. But I enjoy people who pretend they do, and tell all of their new found freedom which is actually a new Fascism. Fascism that is novel enough to look like anarchy. I look around and enjoy it all immensely, because i enjoy fitting the crowd’s screams into my internal cartesian graph of reality, i enjoy it even more because i know the plane of this graph is actually a Sphere. Round and Round we go. Your Anarchy becomes Fascism again and again and again, with whatever Aesthetic it picks up along the way! Again! In Real Time!

I am not sad that Fascism is everything. Because What people get upset about under the word Fascist is actually: cruelty, lies and injustice. The brilliant evil of the word Fascist is we can make some cruelty, evil, lies worse and some better, by pointing fingers at the other and excusing our own.

I know a lot of you reading this will be nervous, so gently, with a hand on yours, with a kind condescending face, let me tell you, I spent a few years exploring full Socialist and full Nationalist identities until I realised both of those wings make up the body of the nazi bird. I cast an equally kind condescending hand to the people of my generation who flirt with neo conservativism in the peace of their online personas, I'm telling you , everyone who has the opposite politics to you thinks of you exactly the same as you think of them.

Please don’t worry about me, i have Stopped. It is not that I am succumbing to the ugliness, but realising Beauty will be found elsewhere .

You are smashing your facial bones to create Sharp Jawline Upper Cheek Bones Maxxing Hunter Eyes. You are listening to subliminal messages to Manifest Ethereal Beauty Watch Your Waist Shrink. I put these on either end of a spectrum. I imagine when I wake up on the other side of this life, I see how they were equally violent.

How much strength the human soul has to lie to itself, again and again and again, to look Beautiful, or be Right.